Monday, December 04, 2006
Its all so different now that i 've realised
how big an impact a person can differ when he/she is not physically around.
You might think sometimes that even if you were to disappear one day, nobody will notice, nobody's life will be affected by your absence.
totally wrong.
No matter how insignificant you are, the truth is your presence do affect.
well.. i felt so not simply because my mum's overseas and everything is kinda chaotic.
Is because of my grandma's death almost a year ago already.
Thing did change drastically, the ties between me and cousins, my aunties and uncles.
I arent sure what happened between the adults but i know they have some disputes over certain matters. i hardly see my cousins at all already, needless to say my aunties. its kinda sad when things arent that when we were young, less complicating. Or it was THAT complicated just that i was too young to realise it. We dont play like we used to anymore, we have this barrier inbetween, this awkardness and they to me are like strangers. i dont know what's going on in their lives anymore. And i dont even know they'll be moving house.
that house. was where my mum stayed when she was young, where she got married, where our family had loads of memories there.everything beside the house changed, from kampong to terraces housing, but it'l soon be gone. All that memories seemed to have been buried tgt with my grandparents. i wonder how they feel if they were to see how things had changed.
i miss that house.
That house which was once filled with warmth and laughter.
spoke at : Monday, December 04, 2006