Monday, November 27, 2006
In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along
I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still i feel i said too much
My silence is my self defense
And every time i've held a rose
It seems i only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon i suppose
But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be worst mistake
So i will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break
And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all i've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows
So i would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows.
(read this poem from a blog.sets me thinking)
spoke at : Monday, November 27, 2006
Sunday, November 26, 2006
I feel lost
My track of thoughts is currently in a whirlpool of confusion
I tried hard to focus and THINK
No matter how, i just could not grasp my thoughts
I dont know where to start,
I dont know how to think.
I dont know what's the best solution
RARR
I just know i hate myself for being SO insensitive.
I'm practically insensitive to everything
I'm doing things which lead to ultimate consequences which i do not mean it and i didnt realise it until its all too late.
WHY WEESING! RAR
i thought pain could wake me and have me re-focused
but im foolish.
i guess i deserved to be alone,
that i'll stop hurting the ones i love.
i'm a goner
forgive me..
i don even understand myself, needless to say, understand others.
does growing a year older helps? i really hope it does.
My track of thoughts is currently in a whirlpool of confusion
I tried hard to focus and THINK
No matter how, i just could not grasp my thoughts
I dont know where to start,
I dont know how to think.
I dont know what's the best solution
RARR
I just know i hate myself for being SO insensitive.
I'm practically insensitive to everything
I'm doing things which lead to ultimate consequences which i do not mean it and i didnt realise it until its all too late.
WHY WEESING! RAR
i thought pain could wake me and have me re-focused
but im foolish.
i guess i deserved to be alone,
that i'll stop hurting the ones i love.
i'm a goner
forgive me..
i don even understand myself, needless to say, understand others.
does growing a year older helps? i really hope it does.
spoke at : Sunday, November 26, 2006
Sunday, November 19, 2006
HA! ok i know i know.. i'm finally back to update!
Days had passed so quickly, school has been hectic as i've freakingirritatingtimeconsumingenergydraining TESTS. gawddd.. haix and i blanked out during pathology test. i blamed myself for last minute preparation. wadever. heck
well..i shall briefly update an overview of wonderful events i've been through! haha
8th Nov
I had outing in town with polymates! i remembered everyone of us had LOTSA FUN. it was really high-uped. haha :) and i rmb me and shihan tgt with seeling xueting were being nice ppl to wait for Lee Bao Bao to knock off from work! ahem! i'll put up some photos here!
ah and neoprint LA!
10th Nov
I think i wenta xueting house together with shihan and seeling for MAHJONG!!! =)))
Start of school, i mugged hard for ocular anatomy, oh and got back my paper just the day after.
and for the whole week i'm like a zombie. cant remember what happened alr.
Pikxuan b'day coming! yay!
and then it'll be clara's
then mine! muehahaha..
17 I'M COMING! u wait.
Days had passed so quickly, school has been hectic as i've freakingirritatingtimeconsumingenergydraining TESTS. gawddd.. haix and i blanked out during pathology test. i blamed myself for last minute preparation. wadever. heck
well..i shall briefly update an overview of wonderful events i've been through! haha
8th Nov
I had outing in town with polymates! i remembered everyone of us had LOTSA FUN. it was really high-uped. haha :) and i rmb me and shihan tgt with seeling xueting were being nice ppl to wait for Lee Bao Bao to knock off from work! ahem! i'll put up some photos here!
ah and neoprint LA!
10th Nov
I think i wenta xueting house together with shihan and seeling for MAHJONG!!! =)))
Start of school, i mugged hard for ocular anatomy, oh and got back my paper just the day after.
and for the whole week i'm like a zombie. cant remember what happened alr.
Pikxuan b'day coming! yay!
and then it'll be clara's
then mine! muehahaha..
17 I'M COMING! u wait.
spoke at : Sunday, November 19, 2006
Monday, November 06, 2006
its e learning week yet i have to wake up at 6 plus for school. Did character development skit before practical. haha had lotsa fun with my group mates =) hope it turns out as well. After which we had visual optics practical, it was swiftly done as it didnt take much time.
wenta meet xueting at orchard for express teppanyaki!! heh =) from hating it to lovin it. its nice =) But still prefer tampines one. and we watched Covenent at 5plus. well the movie was alright becos there are like really hot guys inside. haha. but overall i think underworld was a much much better movie =) enjoy it though.
that's all for today!
looking forward to karaok-ing!
YAY! finally
wenta meet xueting at orchard for express teppanyaki!! heh =) from hating it to lovin it. its nice =) But still prefer tampines one. and we watched Covenent at 5plus. well the movie was alright becos there are like really hot guys inside. haha. but overall i think underworld was a much much better movie =) enjoy it though.
that's all for today!
looking forward to karaok-ing!
YAY! finally
spoke at : Monday, November 06, 2006
Saturday, November 04, 2006
I was packing my drawers and cupboard table today. Then came to realise i've kept alot of things given by all my friends including some seniors and juniors, it can traced back to as early as kindergarten though i couldnt remember some of their names. Losta fond memories, those letters, cards, encouraging tiny notes, birthday gifts, even reciepts i've kept plus MANY many others! haha. some photos below!
This are tiny little encouraging notes given by my "angel" in secondary two when
our class were playing angel mortal game =)) shit but i forgot who's my angel. if i've not gotten wrongly it should be silin.
CNY, christmas, b'day cards! plus LETTERS! love those letters! mostly contributed by shalynn silin kharloo charlene. thanks all!
heh this was one of the many things my dear kharloo loo did for me! =) she's sooo sweet.
This bottle! ah! haha given by kharloo too when we were in secondary two. still remember jingyi yvonne kahfai plus many others came my house,then kharloo si dou bu give me this present. haha. i took much effort to get this from her. Is nice what? dont know wad u thinking at that time =) however this made it memorable! oh and she just told she bought those flowers tgt with shihan, but that time me and shihan werent classmates nor friends yet. wow. haha
YUXUAN! dont know whether u still reads my blog. BUT! this was a birthday card you've made for me! =))
Wallet on the left was given by paula =) i'm still using the keychain she gave!
and the billabong wallet by Xiuru and Shanyan when i was in primary sch =)))
And as i was looking at all the letters, i stumbled upon this particular reply letter by Alicia tan, ex Gmss mates wud know who.
The letter goes ..
Weesing,
Ya i got 1000 guys in my MSN contacts. No good friends also got. In rosuth primary. Ya, they siao.Never on my phone 1hr got 1000 sms inbox full. Ya many wanna escort me home. Everyday wil.l receive flowers. I always got ppl like. i wanna go crazy liao! ya all the guys i like are super smart all in special stream and humorous. haha dun tell anyone and write back k?
Alicia.
HAHAHA! iguess i didnt reply her letter from then on, who careS? haha. This letter was probably written in secondary 1. =) no offence alicia!
This are tiny little encouraging notes given by my "angel" in secondary two when
our class were playing angel mortal game =)) shit but i forgot who's my angel. if i've not gotten wrongly it should be silin.
CNY, christmas, b'day cards! plus LETTERS! love those letters! mostly contributed by shalynn silin kharloo charlene. thanks all!
heh this was one of the many things my dear kharloo loo did for me! =) she's sooo sweet.
This bottle! ah! haha given by kharloo too when we were in secondary two. still remember jingyi yvonne kahfai plus many others came my house,then kharloo si dou bu give me this present. haha. i took much effort to get this from her. Is nice what? dont know wad u thinking at that time =) however this made it memorable! oh and she just told she bought those flowers tgt with shihan, but that time me and shihan werent classmates nor friends yet. wow. haha
YUXUAN! dont know whether u still reads my blog. BUT! this was a birthday card you've made for me! =))
Wallet on the left was given by paula =) i'm still using the keychain she gave!
and the billabong wallet by Xiuru and Shanyan when i was in primary sch =)))
And as i was looking at all the letters, i stumbled upon this particular reply letter by Alicia tan, ex Gmss mates wud know who.
The letter goes ..
Weesing,
Ya i got 1000 guys in my MSN contacts. No good friends also got. In rosuth primary. Ya, they siao.Never on my phone 1hr got 1000 sms inbox full. Ya many wanna escort me home. Everyday wil.l receive flowers. I always got ppl like. i wanna go crazy liao! ya all the guys i like are super smart all in special stream and humorous. haha dun tell anyone and write back k?
Alicia.
HAHAHA! iguess i didnt reply her letter from then on, who careS? haha. This letter was probably written in secondary 1. =) no offence alicia!
spoke at : Saturday, November 04, 2006
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Weee~ Had outing with old peeps! they were none other than charlene, tiffany,kahfai, jianxiong,shuheng,daniel and hanlin! Haven seen some of them since....since... freaking national day la! heh this outing was to celebrate kahfai's long belated birthday, yeap and we went ngee ann city for SEOUL Garden! As most us were damn damn hungry, we ate and ate and ate... till me and shuheng got sick of char siew chicken all thanks to charlene who only picked that. rarrrr haha. had fun while eating, and i was having a super bloated stomach. Not long after both hanlin and tiffany then slow pokes arrived. they had ajisan ramen. if im not wrong we were..or THEY were talking real loudly at the restaurant.hahaha. the joke was shuheng chose TURKEY over Hanlin. hmmm i think tiffany popped out the idea of having a chalet, and thus we started finding a SUITABLE dates for all of us. but apparently there aint any conclusion even till we are almost leaving somerset. =.= yea and kahfai said he could alr remember all our schedules. haha. so i concluded myself that there's no chalet, and only charlene's hotel for her birthday.hope i'll be able to make it. hmm.
spoke at : Thursday, November 02, 2006