My gastric problem is slowly recovering, and I'm feeling much better as compared to a month ago. It was torturous as I could not stay out for too long, I could not eat, I felt nauseous, and most importantly, I've irritated people around me like my family and bestie as I always moan and moan over my discomfort. I'm like spilling cold blanket, I could not even stay for my friend's birthday celebration for long. sigh.I apologize to whom I've caused inconvenience too, and i thank them for all the care and concern, plus the tolerating part. BUT I'm feeling better after I've tried like various methods. From western medicine to chinese ones, chewing on green fresh leaves everyday, stuffing sweets to make me feel better and not forgetting bringing my medicine and plastic bag everywhere i go.
I guess its really part of psychological that made me felt even more sick than I actually am.
OH, my phobia for bugis hasn't ended.
I'm currently avoiding crowds as i get dizzy easily, i avoid eating outside, because i've limited choices like ALWAYS EATING: FISH SOUP, YONG TAU FOO, BROWN RICE, FISH BALL SOUP. I eat brown rice for my 3 meals! although feeling much better, i still would bring food along with me as i have to eat lesser portions MORE meals. I would also bring sweets, water, hmmm medicine, my leaves. yep. troublesome, but at least it allows me to last longer outside.
And I'm trying not to complain so much and be stronger! because i realise a few of my classmates are having worser gastric problems! Yep, and i'll endure even if things are getting worse in india. I hope i can pull through that trip. HA.
Had work as usual today at the optical shop. i met this female patient from china *rolls my eyes*, she wanted to fit contact lenses, I thought it would be an easy case for me, however I was wrong. While checking her eye health, i realise there are some abnormalities on her intraocular lens in both eyes. I doubt wad i saw, and proceed on with the refraction. Whatever lenses i put on for her, it doesnt make her vision improve. I panicked. And she seemed to be doubting me. I told her i acty saw something on her lens just now ( IN SHIT CHINESE) and she doesnt seem to understand me at all and got so worried. I was so lost, and ran for help. and indeed she did have congenital cataract, and I was right acty. But i doubted myself which I shouldnt be. But my colleague could get the best vision when i couldnt.
so the bottom line for myself today is, To trust myself, have more confidence, having more self confidence will somewhat affect the patient's psychological thinking and when they believe in us, they would somehow magically see what they should be seeing. wooo!
when you doubt yourself, they can feel it, and they doubt you, when they doubt you, even if you're doing the correct thing, they would still say " CANNOT SEE!"